The garden

　　I slept through most of the day lollllllllll。

　　To be fair, I did a lot yesterday like, I woke up at 6am (it was supposed to be at 8 or 9am, I slept too early the night before), took care of our cats with feeding and meds。Then I went to make some progress on some CM work, 3/10 got significant progress and very close to finishing soon。After that I tried writing my thoughts down in my journal because I remembered I had this site; so yeah, no wonder I was exhausted today, my body really had to make up for all the work I did。Sucks that it's making my progress slow but eh。

　　In other news; a friend had my contact number and they knew that I was ghosting everyone, including them, but they still took the time to text me through my number every other week。They're so precious to me。

　　Then a sudden message from them surprised me today and they were just asking me if I would accept a sewing machine for my birthday。A sewing machine! They thought of that only because they knew that I've been doing little projects that involves stitching, they were worried that my hands would be hurting doing all that! I'm so??? I feel so seen and loved by that, it made me cry so happy because my head's not being nice to me at all for weeks, it's creeping towards killing myself over something so stupid but then I get this message from them。I want that sewing machine, they thought of me so kindly。
　　
　　My friends DOES think of me despite how much my head tells me that they don't, they care for me, they still do。。。I keep forgetting that, why does my overthinking have to triumph over everything that I want and feel? I hate overthinking。I miss my friends。